米修 米修

Again is here. Omg. I m so sinful! But just can't be help! Though there is no outcome. It will only be hidden with me and no one else. Just let me have the thoughts with me till it die off!

Affirmation

My affirmation working again ! Yeah ! I m so happy! My office PA approached me twice to cover her duties when she going on leave for 2 weeks. On both occasion I rejected her. 1st time she asked me to sit at her workstation. Straight away I tell her no! How can I sit here? 2nd time she asked to cover the big boss. I tell her no. Her job us too stress and I m not train as a PA. I added, can't u get someone from HQ TO COVER U? Then she said: aiya I let the bosses decide. From then I have been doing some affirmation. Friday my HR came tell me the DCEO email her to request to get someone from HQ to cover Kay! Wow I was happy and shock! Yeah!!!

Disappointed.

I want to wish them but cannot openly. So sad. Happy occasion become disappointed occasion. Just promotion only mah no big deal!

What a Day in office!

Today I m all alone in office without my buddy & teammate. I alone to support all the managers, heads, AD and even DE! first office Aircon broke down! Then Kenneth came in. Quickly SMS Weelly. Then ask aloysious the contact for Aircon. Then Andy came to ask me do up a list for him. The tender issues need to settle. Then my boss email me to raise Annie iwo. Then Clara come to ask me to help her key her data. Even Clara aso take advantage of me! I was like !!! I told her that I could not help her today cos I really have tons of things to clear and BCA ppl coming in the afternoon! Finally I managed to settle the tender issues and raise the iwo after Annie call back from Taiwan. Then Andy's list also done. Then afternoon the BCA visit, asked the temp staff to help kaixin, end up they ran away. I told them off. Kaixin was helping throughout but was rebuked by her superviour for not helping Julia. I was so so angry. Because it was Julia not doing work and tell tale. And kaixin was the one who help out but was rebuked. Till now I am still very upset and angry. What should I do? I find it the relationship of the 2 adults so disguising! And bully a young girl like that until she cried. What can I do for her !

My need, i need.

When I need love, love is nowhere to be found.
When I need comfort, comfort is nowhere to be found.
When I m sad, happiness is nowhere to be found.
When I need to be understood, understanding is nowhere to be found.


I want my peace, freedom if I m non-exist in your eyes!

Yeah this one can!

Wow. There are things that I wish to write abt my emotion but I couldn't. All I can say. I m lost. I 米修。米修。 Sad. Lost.

testing

Hope this new apps works for blogging.

Not again

I am unable to post through my iphone again!

So pissed!

Well I have new assignment! To call tender.

Well this time is not a private company that I am calling tender, thats why is a new assignment!

Have lots to write but somehow ......brain block!

okok

Do affirmation

My Life works beautifully
Everything in my Life works now and forevermore!

2nd yr

It has been 2 years!

It really take times to heal a broken heart.

Till now today. I still have very selfish thoughts.

There is no need to be married and have children.

Till now I have no regrets for such thoughts. Unless in future there are issues that can change my thoughts for that!

Perhaps I do have regrets. That is to be married.

Make a wish today! Is 滿日.

I pray for world peace, good health of all living beings.

I wish for a peaceful job and responsible colleagues.

Thank you to everyone making this possible!

Finally?

Din manage to post a blog I wrote on 28 Feb. Something must be wrong.

Let's test !

Control

This week was a buzy week. Now is over! The capping ceremony, SOE migration. Next week will be better though SOE still around and my turn to migrate. But there are temp staff to help me!!! Oh I have temp staff!

Last time I request until I left aso difficult to get us a temp staff. Now they going to get me 2 temp staff!

Now I know qurrelsome and angry stars around. So must control my emotion. I tends to let off at my youngest!

Jasline everything is well and be happy!

Inter-relationship

I find that to have a good relationship to other people is so difficult. I really feel that I treat someone well, usually is not appreciated. Others always like to take advantage. Previous helper is like that, now this one is also like that! Just don't understand. Is because they are maid, they need to be treated the way they are seen, called, no need to give a better human treatment!

Let me just chant my mantra and hope she will be different.

I m back!

I m back. Not away too long. Have lots to say. Have been busy lately. Seems like everyone is looking for me to do work or rather help them out! Omg! Am I being seen too free! Oh nvr! It is just the start and colleague on leave.

This world is too small. Yesterday just found out one of my colleague is my bro's ex-colleague and good friend? Wow! And I got her into little trouble today! Lol can't help! Advice her to wound down her car window so that it will not be to heat up. But then suddenly the sky pouring and got her interior car a free wash as she wound down more than half! Oh I m so sorry! I shldnt not advice you anything else in future! SORRY!

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!

The cny is over, I seems to be writing much lesser here? Have I become sick of writing? Or my life now is more happy? No stress so nothing much to write. Just like my jewelry. Has stop making! But I do hope to recommence making.

List of things to accomplish before next CNY.
Paint my house
Change new sofa
Buy 1 side table and coffee table
Change shoe cabinet.

WOW I have alot to make over leh.

I wish to do more actually!
But need to save up!
Yeah

HP Products

Do not buy notebook or PC from HP. They do not honor their warranty! And their products are lousy especially wireless. Trying to get my issue with case for their non-compliances!

Affirmation for 2011!

Every thought I think is creating my future.
I release the past and forgive everyone
I know that I am surrounded and filled by infinite wisdom.
My life gets more fabulous everyday.
I look forward to what each new hour brings.
I look forward to new beginning in 2011
By Louise Hay.

Good Bye 2010!

What a long and eventful year! Good and bad! Is finally going to be over!

All the bad, really bad has come to me. Relationship: mom, bosses, colleagues & my maid. My daughters too.

Good, really good. I learnt about affirmation from Bryan laoshi and it works miracle on me! I finally get to fly to another country for holiday and I enjoy it alot! I change my career! Wow that's is fantastic! From a no care company to a super staff welfare company, although they both are stat board. From a very overload work to a quite no so busy work! Hahaha that's my biggest gain in life so far. Even the salary increase was not a big one and din get my year end fat Bonus, I felt worthy! Can u image that, happiness overwrites everything! Last but not least I hope, my new maid, seem very capable, detailed, will be good and work for me long long time!

Good bye 2010!
Welcome 2011!

My busy period is OVER!

Yeah! Friday was the company celebration for Xmas which I most worried. Because I need to bring my children! Well! It was the youngest that I most scare of! She always make a scene on occasion or celebration! Which she did it again! OMG! when can she grow up like the 2 sisters !
I aso pick up my new helper on Friday! Thanks Cheng yee for the ride out of office tat day!

I am successful in whatever I do!

Worst weekend at chalet!

Can't image we actually spent money to waste time at the chalet east coast park! Conditions are yucks! No proper chair to sit, really don't know what to do there! TV with no remote control! So we went home to sleep both nights!

Finally she is gone!

I have finally sent her back to agent on Monday after she took her own sweet time to come back on sunday.

She asked me she is she can find her friend to borrow money after she finished her work. It made my blood boiled! I refused at first. Later I told her to go at 10:45am and be back by 1:30pm. But she came home only after 6pm!!!!

That is it! She had to go! She is so sickening!!!
Why people just wouldn't repent their mistake and so greedy! To think I have treated her so well yet she is so ungrateful! No sense of responsibility and shame! I really hope to see her final destiny here! Haiz!

I am thankful for all the good in my life!

I think I am right to move!

Although I have been in the new work place only a week, but I am much happier here than in my previous work place! Thou I din get my bonus for this year, yet to announce I feel is worthy!

1st it is not as busy, bosses are nice especially the CEO is an ABC. They are not particular, may be different job nature. Pace is slower. Also the sex ratio is more balanced.

I am happy and grateful for everything I have and received daily!

Should i or not?

This year I keep having this question pop out for me. Now I have this question due to my maid, should I or not to replace her?

She has not been honest and she stole my british pound and got cheated by money changer! She stole my 200 pound and change for only S$ 250. later she lost her handphone worth of abt $100.

I forgive her for stealing and let her continue working and did not call the police. And set rules for her. But today she broke the rules. She went downstairs without our knowledge because we went JB and returned earlier than expected. It was only we returned 1 Hr later I SMS her then she realized we were home, then she came back.

So now I am asking if I should continue letting her to stay working with me or replace her.

Korea!

I went Korea last week and back on Monday. Before I went, I have no expectation, and I dont like Korean food as well. But I became love Korean food. Hahaha, everyday we were there we had different style of korean food. yummy.

Korea has alot people, cars, bridges, mountains, & steel.
but there isn't dustbin on street, so we need to bring our rubbish home. Haha
If there is chance I would like to go seoul again to shop! I have not shop enough there at Seoul partly due to my impatient daughter! Hazi next time dun bring her to my trips oversea.

If i have done the right thing today?

Today definitely is not a good day, I found out my maid steal money, £200. Of course I asked her. She denied at 1st! But still admitted that she stole. I said I will forgive her knowing she need the money to send back home! But of course the trust is lost! And she also being cheated by the money changer. £200 she only get $250. How can that be when pound can easily get double. Now she has to pay me back $400. And recently she lost her handphone that cost her another about $100. By stealing from me she lost additional $250. And her good deed need to restart over again. I forgive her I really not sure if is right and continue to let her work for me? I told her she get her retribution almost immediately. And her effort are gone to waste. It is not worthy! I just thought that she had her difficulties, so forgive her and give her 1 last chance.

I have left my work place of 8 yrs.

The most heart warming thing was to visit my ex AD, Ms Chua Hwee Leng. She was sad, could see tears nearly thou I just work for her for 2.5 yrs. She said if i could not survive out there just give her a call! Omg, my own AD n SDD now dint even offer tat. My SDD was more cruel. On the last day I gave her my gift and snack, she just said oh u found a job? All the best! And that's it! She is biased, tat is one of the reason I choose to leave. I am not unhappy with my work. I am not happy with current management. I am under the same boss for the past 4 yrs! I don't see tat she fight for me either. Well even till now I can't feel that I have left! May be I need to start work with new company to feel the difference. All the best to me!

His Birthday

Today supposed to celebrate his birthday but became another war with my youngest! I really don't know how long I can stand her. Just 1 word there goes off our peaceful nite of celebration. I have given up hope on her.

My Birthday

Today is my birthday! A tiring and probably most emo one. Last birthday at work at CPF BOARD attending staff sem. Also Mi run bulk. I m aso the 1st to complete the bulk. Haha!!! Tire till really low energy and dry eye.
I am grateful to my parents, Bryan too, so that I learn abt affirmation which many of my wishes have come true!
Now I wish for I have helpful, friendly and supportive colleagues and bosses. My new job will be a successful one too.
Everyone is healthy and happy always.
I will strike 4d / toto from 9644.
May all my wishes come true!

Tendering!

I m tendering on Monday! After checking a few times with HR. So sad so emotion! But I think I have get over it so not thinking so hard so long. Yeah!

Signed

I have signed the appt letter today. The benefit are not as good as current, but at least pay is more and no need to do operation work answer phone enquries or also may be dun have the so called "extra duties" to assess you for better pay increase and promotion.
Now the mind set need to change:


Now I begin to feel excited!

Nice comment

At least someone commented: wow! You got it? garden by the bay! Hi 5! Haha so happy!